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Totally, Totally.

by The Michael Character

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1.
Erik Prince 03:54
Erik Prince should have long been in The Last Jail Rooming with the pardoned murderers of Nisour Square Abolish every other corner of the prison system, but We can sort the fair of Empire’s handmaids after Christ’s re-risen Enjoy your new job at Raytheon! We are all complicit, so let’s go, come on! Aerial bombardment makes death’s attribution hard So we can terrorize a lot of people Northrop Grumman and Boeing, man We can make Iran the new Afghanistan Trillions of dollars pissed away to private hands And a devastated, ailing population Sanctions destabilize societies They manufacture scarcity and misery In pursuit of so-called ‘national security’ But tormenting the people is the policy Banana workers couldn’t hear the 20s roar in Magdalena (the banana zone in Columbia; reference to the 1928 massacre of United Fruit workers) There’s a million Indonesians buried with the PKI (Communist Party of Indonesia; reference to 1965-66 mass killings) El Mozote’s ghosts are crammed into detention centers and (reference to the 1981 El Mozote massacre in El Salvador, and the network of present-day incarceration facilities for detained migrants operated along the US-Mexico border) The jury’s out on how many in Yemen still will die (reference to the ongoing civil war in Yemen) So enjoy your new job at Raytheon Lockheed Martin, Draper, and the fucking robot dog (made by Boston Dynamics) The machinery of empire hems close to market logics So we’ll keep marching on, kid Yeah, we’ll keep marching on
2.
31 04:24
Books stacked up on the desk Like sandbags for protection But the water's gonna find a way in... So long staring at this window The news is far away I turn the radio off early lately Power fears turned tables above everything else So they pulverize the vulnerable to comfort themselves The state, the cops, the occupiers, armed to the teeth With a mandate for repression we support implicitly But nobody needs a perfunctory "mea culpa!" Apologies come as soon as conditions necessitate the illusion of doing something I've got change for you and it's a one-liner: "Stop the Hate!" on a little painted sign A meek cry thrown from the back of a big room while the planet dies The politics of recognition are a dead end Pointing at a body like: "I think this guy needed medicine!" Oh, tell your very observant friend I think they're on to something... Like, where's all the Land Back when you need it? The political means for Palestinian freedom? The right live as a whole human being to go where you want and to eat when you need it? Power fears turned tables above everything else So it lashes out in violence to comfort itself Scary boyfriends, jailers, judges, pipeline police And ubiquitous surveillance fills the spaces in-between We reify data We reify law Efficiency, measurement, reason and all Epistemological means of control Teaching kids at a vulnerable age That their emotions burden their brains The Self, an undisciplined worker who needs the firm hand of management to be made useful It's hard to believe When a whole bunch of people who stay the same say "everything is changing" We welcome a New Day like Anything is happening-- (Weird!) I don't mean to be mean or disempower This is just me spiraling I'll be fine in about an hour For now I'm just incredulous Raging that there's gotta be a better way to get folks the things that they need: Healthcare, Housing, Food, and Dignity But what I don't know at thirty-one years old I'm probably not gonna know Without making the time Prioritizing Thinking, deciding Building a life And trying to be alright Bringing the fight when conditions call for a struggle That's when you'll know If the strategy's right If you brought enough muscle Fail, rinse, repeat And do a better job tomorrow Power fears turned tables above everything else So our highest aspirations atrophy under our doubts So let's incubate the futures that we all know we need And in the meantime struggle firmly against our class enemies 'Cause to them Law and Order translates to Control of subject populations of whom their afraid with the Fear and the Hate enacted by the State all the while making Bank selling weapons Hip Hooray! Then they render the system of social provision so indescribably impotent that it feels unrealistic to make any demands of it Who does that serve? The same Bastards So hell yea, I voted for Bernie Sanders! Medicare for All my friends! Fully fund that shit! And if you love your employer-provided sky-high-deductiblized private insurance so much Why don't you marry it?
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Burt's Bees 03:12
The car is coming closer on my little screen (I’m) looking real cool on the sidewalk in my slim-cut jeans I’m reading the Yelp reviews for the Holocene Because ‘consumer’ is my primary identity I read conditions back into a moral code Yeah, the Good like Me deserve a Real Home And when I get real sick I can take a whole day Pop to the Minute Clinic for a 20-dollar co-pay Did I work for all the things I got? My high birth and my union job? Benefits won through struggle I wasn’t yet present to play my little part in? Obsessed with what people deserve Like anything you get you must have earned So we reject a universal guarantee of Social Goods For everyone on Earth Just for being human, not as payment for some work Or based on any other bullshit valuation of our worth (WHY??) So now you’re like a populist, but in the sense of just for Small Businessowners Jeffersonian yeoman using corvée labor infrastructure Cosplaying the Working Class Hiding my elite diploma Bought a house with family cash But the equity is mine to hold While ordinary working people hustle just to scrape A couple scraps of dignity and comfort from the plate Expected to be frugal, to avoid emergencies The kind from which they run the risk of losing everything But if you come from money and you’ve never been without You can blow a thousand dollars on a table for your house And never face the scrutiny of wasting what you’ve got Because Austerity is for those needy folks and not for you Did I work for all the things I got? Stolen land and too many cops? Big capital’s tag team with the state? (Coercion for private property) Obsessed with keeping things the same Like ‘natural law’ prevents substantial change So we reject as utter fantasy the concept of the Social Wage Our health and home and transportation Our basic needs understood as high quality public goods You shouldn’t need a credit score to live You shouldn’t need five thousand dollars down to have a place to raise your kids Shit gets a little hairy when the things a person needs Are granted the same status as a mere commodity Because the Market and the Profit Motive do a decent job Of getting thirteen Burt’s Bees flavors But not of compensating people for their labor Or keeping life affordable For people who don’t own any capital
5.
Futurity 02:34
Futurity takes planning, of whatever kind Maybe your horizon is lunch tomorrow Or the end of your grandchildren’s lives Maybe it’s flexible and wait-and-see But (it) probably falls into one of two piles Both shaped by ideology Whether unconscious or crafted to match your style Pile-1-People plan for a future That looks like an infinite present Maybe things change here and there But some things are forever: Property’s value And their ‘bloodline’ or whatever Pile-2-People plan for something very different Maybe it’s climate collapse, water wars Or the limits of infinite growth Infinite violence Infinite consumption Infinite time to exploit last chances The infinite gaps in our material standing The infinite precarity of everyday living The infinite wealth of our aristocrats’ kids So anyway… Since you asked me how I’m doing… I’ve been trying to drag myself to the credit union To inquire about a mortgage preapproval But then I get to thinking ‘bout my visions for the future Of the thirty years of steady living that I’d be assuming Of the normatively-patterned life I tell myself I’m choosing Of the pension that I think will be there for me to collect Of the pleasures of retirement I’ll sample ‘til I’m dead Of the children that we’ll maybe have, and the cool lives they’ll be living Thanks to the universal, high-quality public goods we’ll win Of neighborhood-based health clinics, free at the point of service Of universal childcare, and One Big Fucking Union But I haven’t been to the credit union yet So I can’t even shop around to see what I could get No, I can’t even shop around to see what I could get No, I can’t even bring myself to make that one move yet
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7.
Metal Ring 01:09
When you can’t remember how it used to be And you stare at the photos Eating time’s dust Watch you forget All those you’s they used to see Now recreated Every minute Someone new who looks like me
8.
32 03:34
Now we put away young adult things I’m no idealist anymore We live bound by definite constraints That narrow the ways we can imagine wanting more Because the structuring logics of our civilization They warp and corrode the imagination And when you give up alternatives One’s life eventuates Along a path of least resistance Towards inheriting the futures that history created So we bought a house With sufficient storage Moved to the suburbs Took out a mortgage Hetero-passing And we both drive cars We work all day Then we hit the bar Yeah, this is the outcome And it isn’t even hard Living like our parents Like it’s who we are Well, everybody grows up eventually— When you develop a stake in maintenance of society A material interest in the ways that we’re supposed to be A deeper understanding of The Enemy But we just wanted housing stability Which is elusive for renters in this city So naturally we pondered owning property As a solution to a rootless insecurity And my credit is good 'cause I have money From the union contract that sets my salary So a man I’ve never met and his financial team Released like all of this cheddar they were authorized to lend to me And 'cause housing exists as a commodity Whose value is determined by the market, thus by scarcity The cost is just enormous, but it gets worse if you keep waiting And everybody's got to find a place to settle down eventually But once you’ve signed the papers and you shift your class position Once you own a little capital, two bedrooms and a kitchen On expropriated native land converted into Property (Those origins disavowed because it’s very, very easy) Then all of these constitutive components of society Transform in one fell swoop into a system that benefits me More directly Yeah, those very same price hikes that got you down Are now a long-term mechanism for to build your wealth And those property taxes that pay for our schools Are now a personal burden on me And while my renting friends languish under rising costs I’ll be building equity The state and its violence are now on my side Busting faces to secure my private property And when we’re at the public meeting on the housing crunch I’ll be fighting new development and density To keep the value of my stolen land from decreasing Yeah, as long as I never have to leave my job I’ll live in comfort and security Pursing my material interests To the detriment of all of the unlanded all around me Makes sense if it makes cents for me S then C Makes sense if it makes cents for me S then C So here at 32 I now can tell you And as a homeowner, I truly understand That if we're ever going to have a just society We've got to decommodify the land
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10.
We all deserve payment for the work that we do A safe place to do it, and healthcare to boot Food for our bellies, a home, and clean clothes If that sounds like dreaming to you I hope you'll get more creative real soon If you’re an asshole, I hope your paid fairly If you don’t like me, I hope you’re paid fairly If you believe nonsense, I hope you’re paid fairly Even my 'Stop The Steal,' chain-smoking neighbors It gets hard to breathe and they drive me insane But I won’t tell the landlord and risk their eviction 'Cause no one should live on the street The future I want is for everybody And if that makes you angry and you think I’m a fool I hope you'll get more creative real soon Borders are only for people, I’ve found 'Cause capital can circulate all around So it's funny how some people get pissed about Jobs getting moved overseas, what a shame Then somehow the laborers take all the blame And the xenophobes want fellow workers encaged It seems pretty wild, and off the mark too To violently keep folks from living like you In defense of the handful whose wealth we balloon So I hope you’ll get more creative real soon History can be a trauma we live with So justice for all means attending to difference Indigenous peoples need treaty rights honored Sovereignty isn’t a metaphor, man It means a legitimate claim to the land And if you think that’s fanciful, silly or impossible Settler theft each day harm folks anew So I hope we’ll get more creative real soon (Yeah Land Back right now and Free Palestine too!) Sometimes I hate people, I’m just being honest And sometimes embracing that feels like a tonic But mostly I know that we just need a project To get folks the things that they need And that’s the best outlet for our energies And if you think that that sounds naïve or simplistic Maybe you’re right and there’s nothing to do But I hope we all get more creative real soon

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This is the 15th TMC album. These songs were written between the spring of 2021 and the summer of 2022, mostly in my apartment in Quincy, MA. They are a product of the post-Covid lockdown period, the oldest of the bunch ("31") having been written shortly before my first post-lockdown in-person hang with the Bummer City crew. The lockdown broke my sense of linear time and, in so doing, troubled my relationship with futurity. There were stretches in 2020 and 2021 when it felt like there wasn't going to be a future at all, just an unending present. This made the transition out of lockdown particularly strange, and I think this record, in as much as it grasps at a hopeful, future-oriented political project, should be understood in the context of that transition. Somewhere between my return to in-person teaching (March 2021) and my more or less regular national tour with Eleanor (summer 2022), I wrote these songs to meditate on our collective responsibility for one another, to contemplate the moral obscenity of war, state violence, and cartoonish inequality, to grapple with the layers of environmental catastrophe we are so tightly folded into, to continue the difficult work of imagining alternatives, to puzzle out possible pathways for collective action, to pull some sober hope from hopeless places, and to connect with other people through these things. I hope you enjoy the record, and that you find something in it that feels true, something worth holding in your hands and looking at for a while. There is much else to say, but I won't.
- James (11/21 and 11/22/2022)

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released December 9, 2022

All songs written by James Ikeda
Produced by Matt O'Connor
Engineered, Mixed, and Mastered by Ben Greer
Album art by Louis Roe

Recorded at a rental house in Wardsboro, VT and Eric's apartment in the South End in the fall of 2022. Drums recorded in Philly with Jackie M.
Thanks to Clover and Boy at Dollhouse Lightning for putting this out on CD!

Larz Brogan - drums on "31"
Eric Cowan - bass guitar and upright bass
James Ikeda - acoustic guitar, vocals, auxiliary percussion on "Burt's Bees"
June Isenhart - electric guitar on "31"
Jonah Ko - electric guitar on "31"
Amanda Lozada - auxiliary guitar, backup vocals on "Song for a Project"
Matt O'Connor - lead guitar, bells, Eliot Hugh
Sydney Smith - Clarinet
Eugene Umlor - keys, synth, spoon-on-keyboard on "Burt's Bees"
Artemis Friel - saying like one word at the start of the first interlude

Special thanks to Judy Chong, who let Zachy and I come to this huge crazy house she's currently looking after so we could shoot pool (I am writing this from a couch in said house; thanks Jude!). Thanks also to Allston Billiards, Amazin' Billiards, the workers at Sunrise Breakfast in Norwood, the workers at The Weekend in Allston (RIP Steve's, we'll remember you always), the workers at @Union in Allston, the workers at Boston's greatest bar of all time the Glenville Stops (RIP, ugh), the inimitable Erica Poole, the wonderful folks at Koji Club, Louie, Vuch, Jacob, Sophie, Mica, Fenn, and the rest of the Bummer City Historical Society crew who weren't actually playing on this record, the Bummer City Open Mic crew, my family, all the people who hosted, ran, or came out to shows on the summer 2022 tour, and of course, my love, Eleanor Larsen.

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It's political music, whatever. Based in Boston, MA. Absolutely willing to drive very far to play for you and five of your vaguely alternative friends in your combination kitchen/laundry room. Hit me up. I'm fully serious.

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