Exchange my life’s ease
For the blamelessness of poverty
Put all my eggs in one basket, one casket
Then drop’em all down the deepest deep sea canyon I can find
If I was blind I would be all the wiser
If I was deaf I would break down and cry
If I was smarter or stronger or taller or more in shape I would still be happy most of the time
You’ve got an office
I’ve got a hot meal
You’ve got assistants
I’ve got radical zeal that makes me easy to marginalize
You’ve got the benefit of being a legend in your own right
Is relativism a ruse? A lie?
To rationalize the fear inside?
To keep me searching day and night
For an answer that I know I can’t find
I’ll never be satisfied with who I am
‘Cause I’ve already done so much less than I could have
Obnoxious and arrogant
I don’t see the draw, don’t see why I have any friends at all
I’ve been a liar, But I’ve been hired
Not going skyward, But at least I’ve got direction
And for now that’s enough for me, in fact that’s plenty
Two steps forward, trip the trap door
Slide back three months, stand up and start again
Quit looking over my shoulder I told her I wasn’t interested
My friends are all saints for tolerating my bullshit
Maybe someday I’ll pay them back for it
Maybe someday I’ll pay them back for it.